I cannot cry. Even if I want to. I guess all my tears dried up after he left- after he died. whatever tears in me were bottled up and thrown away- far far away… and all that is left in me is an empty space – a void, an endless vaccuum that would never be filled.
Why did they have to do that? Why?
I do not understand. I guess without the tears. I also forgot how to really smile. Why? Why Am I so void of feelings now? Why am I so Angry? Why am I so mad? Why am I going crazy?
I have to move on and live for him. I have to prove him I was wrong. I have to keep on going. NO MATTER what.