Since it happened, things have changed. People have changed. Even lives have changed. When change is this big, then sometimes you have to question yourself. Is my life worth it? Do I have people I can really trust? Will people honor me when i am gone? Or will they shrug it off and forget that I even lived?
I have gone through a lot of thinking. A LOT. I want to leave a legacy. I want to be remembered. I want my name to be at least known to those important to me. I want them to remember me for something – and not just “That nerdy girl.”
Maybe. I have to go through change too and find out for myself what legacy I can leave. Maybe I should die to myself and be born again. Maybe I should experience that magic…
Am I ready for this?
But I know one thing. I want to live forever.