How do I get one of those?
I like looking at my friend’s babies. I have a list of kids I check up on. Sarai, Arwen , Alex, Mappy, Enzo, Igo, Aidan, AJ, Elise, Katrice… and the list goes on and on and on and on. I LOVE KIDS and Im thinking KIDS LOVE ME TOO.
I am suffering from Baby Envy. When I see a child with their mother, there are times that I cry for my own. I guess, it’s instinct — or maybe it’s pressure. I don’t know. All I know is that I need a child of my own – but I know I need to be ready for it.
BUT I WANT!!
Child raising is not a trivial thing. It costs MONEY. I experience it first hand, seeing how things are with my goddaughter. My friend’s baby, people with children tell me. I even look at prices to know that HOLY HELL IT COSTS AN ARM AND A LEG and then some to raise a little runt. So, until I am ready to dole out cash… This baby girl will be babyless.
yet, I could imagine myself looking into the eyes of my child. I dream about it. I cry about it. God knows how much I want it. But yes, It’s still not the right time. As Luci said…”Madaling gawin iyan, nasan ang pang upkeep…”
But really, I am ready and will prepare to be ready to be a mother. I just hope that I could be good as my mom was and be patient enough for it… I will wait…
Let’s not do things right now, let’s do things right.