I feel like a zombie. All I know is that however pretty my make-up is, I look and feel like a lovely made-up corpse. D.E.A.D. I feel like a corpse too. Barely breathing, red eyes and dead expression. Eloisa would look at me and say that my “GLOW” is missing again.
Actually, it’s been missing for a few weeks now. Eversince I got sick and got some message about someone who screwed me over. !@$%^^%#%^%^%!!! I really do not know how to get it back. Maybe one day, it will all just be magical again. Right now, though, I feel like hell.
2010 is promising to me. I feel that this year would be a year for LOVE, CHANGE and a lot of OPENNESS for me. It’s already started. I have talked to my mom more now than for the past 20 years of my life and frankly, i quite enjoy it. I don’t hide away anymore, because, I mean I’m 30 and not 18 — i think they’d want me to date, right?
On the dating scene, several prospects pop into view. 🙂 let’s just put it this way, I’m good in that department. Maybe even a little well off. I am pretty (except today) and losing weight. I am also feeling a bit more confident about myself.
Maybe one would be better than before. Who knows? Right?